Stories based on a Lifetime of Journaling, Musings and Wanderings
Background: I am originally an East coast girl, but growing up I never felt like I belonged. As I got older and my life was ever changing I was able to take a trip West. In those wide open spaces, that infinite blue sky, and those massive snow-capped mountains, I found my home. I have now been here over 20 years and this is where I plan to draw my last breath.
My journey wasn’t always an easy one. Through the years I have journaled and written stories, mostly when I was mad, sad or hurting. It has always served as an outlet to help me move past the pain and on with my life. You see, I am stubborn, I overthink everything, I have a temper, and I have made many bad decisions. I have worked hard, I have loved hard, and I have also been extremely Blessed.
During this COVID-19 self-isolation I pulled out those old journals and decided to share the stories in this blog. If you take nothing else away from reading this please remember that even though we may feel like we are totally alone there are always others going through similar situations and trials.
So always Show Respect and Be Kind! Just because you don’t think it’s a big deal doesn’t mean it isn’t someone else’s everything!
Cowgirls and Intimidation
To “intimidate” implies inducing fear or a sense of inferiority into another. - Merriam-Webster To me intimidation is a close second to procrastination in keeping us from trying or doing something we want to do. Even if it is something that we really enjoy, have...
Cowgirls and Bullshit – Part 1
"2020 - Lessons" I am pissed. First of all, I don’t care about your political or religious beliefs. I don’t care about your gender, skin color, or sexual orientation. I don’t care if you believe we should wear a mask or don’t wear one. What I do care about is that...
Cowgirls And Tequila
Tequila loves me…shots, margaritas, sunrises…shots. She takes my personality, finds my innermost hidden thoughts, grabs them, and throws them out my mouth. She also makes me about ten times louder than I usually am (which is already pretty damn loud) because she wants...
Cowgirl Walk Away
Remember as a kid going outside exploring? See a stick on the ground, pick it up, beat it against a log. Or even better poke it in the first little hole you see in a tree or in the ground. Remember not even thinking about some pissed off creature or creepy crawly...
Cowgirls And Cocoons
Cocoon - (noun) something that envelops or surrounds, especially in a protective or comforting way. This next journal entry was written just after my third, yes third, failed marriage. I suddenly realized that I had changed quite a bit in the past eleven years. I had...
Cowgirls And Judgment
Warning: I write what is in my heart and my mind and sometimes they both say bad words. None of us can say we aren’t judgmental. Seeing someone else’s shortcomings or seeing they are struggling, in some f’d up way, makes us feel better about ourselves. I went way back...
Old(er) Cowgirls Advice To Young Cowgirls
When I grew up the word “lady” exemplified elegance and grace. Audrey Hepburn, Julie Andrews, and Katherine Hepburn were just a few of the Hollywood stars that come to mind. If you are reading this and don’t know these ladies I suggest you take some time to watch “My...
Cowgirls Don’t Look Down
Warning: I write what is in my heart and my mind and sometimes they both say bad words. “If I ever let my head down again it will be just to admire my boots!” Backstory: Times were challenging for me.....OK, they were shit. I had made a couple of bad financial...
Cowgirls And Comfort Zones
Warning: I write what is in my heart and mind and sometimes they both say bad words. Comfort Zones are kind of like the story of the dancing chicken. (Flashback to the movie Pure Country) At the carnival a dancing chicken was one of the sideshows.The owner would put...
Cowgirl Strong
Warning: I write what is in my heart and in my head and sometimes they both say bad words! Backstory: For some reason I have always intimidated people, both women and men, and I'm not sure why. I am average build, not hateful or mean (unless I absolutely have to be),...