Tequila loves me…shots, margaritas, sunrises…shots. She takes my personality, finds my innermost hidden thoughts, grabs them, and throws them out my mouth. She also makes me about ten times louder than I usually am (which is already pretty damn loud) because she wants my innermost thoughts to be shared with EVERYONE! I’ve also been told by the bystanders that I am fairly entertaining. I dance on tables and sing to the top of my lungs while still managing to keep all my clothes on!
If you have ever had tequila steal your soul, you know that she is constantly encouraging you to take just one more shot. She conspires with your friends who also encourage your additional shots to make sure you are having a blast!
Then the morning comes. Happy sunshine comes through your window and tries to blind you, your head feels like it weighs 10 pounds and your stomach wants to leave your body. All-day you hate yourself for taking that “one last shot”. You ask yourself if it was worth it and swear you are NEVER drinking tequila again!
But how long does it take to feel a little bit better, start talking to your friends and begin planning to go out the next weekend? And like clockwork, tequila will show up at the party and she will begin the cycle again. That’s why (in my weird brain process) tequila reminds me of a few relationships I’ve had in the past.
Is that toxic relationship worth it? Did he at first make you feel like telling him your innermost thoughts and dancing on the table? Now does he make you feel like you don’t want to even exist? And just when you are tired of feeling like a piece of shit and think you can move on, does he turn on that charm and sex appeal that originally drew you to him so you decide to give him “one last shot”? I’m not talking about your regular couple “spats” because everyone has them. I’m talking about making you feel unworthy and unloved.
When will you decide enough is enough and give up what steals your peace and well-being? When will you decide that you are worth more? When will you decide you don’t want to take that “one last shot”?
Stay Strong My Friends!