Warning: I write what is in my heart and in my head and sometimes they both say bad words!
Backstory: For some reason I have always intimidated people, both women and men, and I’m not sure why. I am average build, not hateful or mean (unless I absolutely have to be), and I am Southern so I was raised to be nice and polite to everyone.
But I am loud, both when mad and happy. I have a strong personality and will talk to just about anyone. I have a quick temper. I am very independent most of the time to a fault! When I was younger I was not “in your face” but I didn’t back down. I worked hard in what was typically a man’s job for most of my life and I had to keep up. So maybe I developed a “survival” persona of toughness that I didn’t even realize when sometimes I was dying inside.
I am proud of who I am and I’ve mellowed as I’ve aged. My daughters would probably disagree about the mellowing part but say I am still a badass, tough and hard-headed. These are traits that I’m afraid I have passed down to them and they are rocking it!
I found this journal entry from about 10 years ago. Stay strong my friends!
Be STRONG
I was told recently that I was a “strong woman” and strong women are hard to love so maybe I should cut it back a notch or two. What?!? I had never really thought about it before and am still struggling to understand.
We have strong personalities that can be intimidating…..got it. We are warriors who will fight a circle saw to protect the ones we love at our expense. We do nothing “half ass” but go all in with every task. We give with our hearts and pour everything we have into life. And even though this can lead to ultimate betrayal and failure we just keep going as we cry. We don’t take anyones shit and lay our thoughts and emotions on the table and because of this we are called “cold hearted bitches”?!?
Well I ask you, who had you rather be standing beside you when your world goes to hell? A strong woman who will always have your back or a meek one who will always do your bidding but will run at the first sign of trouble?
Give me Cowgirl Strong any day!
So for those of you men who can’t handle or love a “strong woman” just pull up your big girl panties and continue on your way. Trust me, we’ll be fine.
“Stay strong and make them wonder how you’re still smiling.” – dailyquotes.com